Aaaahhh... It's here!

We have had a dozen problems crop up. It's expected the week you wed. These problems ranged from HUGE to small. Lost GM tux to a wedding planner cancelling on us. All our problems are smoothed over now.

I am in a weird state of mind. I thought by now I would be (happily) crying over family I haven't seen in forever and the anticipation of finally marrying J Love. But no. I am the picture of calm. I am estatic and at peace. I am willingly waiting. Enjoying every last second of being a bacherlorette.

At the moment I am soaking up the internet. As I know this will be the last day I get uninterrupted me time. Time to waste time. Doing this.

This will be my last post as a single lady. The next time I write to you all I will Mrs. Dubs. !!!

I'm getting married this Saturday. Two days away from getting married. Calm is flowing through my body. Thank you God!

The Past

I am in the middle of re-reading all my old blog posts. Posts where I am freaking out because the wedding is 2 months away and then three weeks away. Posts where I don't even mention the wedding that is the ONLY thing I think about anymore. We are now officially ONE WEEK away from THE wedding. We're not even calling our wedding anymore. It's all anybody can talk about here. I'm the first getting married for my parents. First girl for my grandparents.

We went to get our marriage licence today. We loaded up a tiny cart with liquor & mixings. We ordered carpet for the pool area. We booked a DJ at an AWESOME rate. And then we celebrated with Happy Hour.

WE'RE GETTING MARRIED IN A WEEK!

I am feeling anxious. And that is all. I am all done with EVERYTHING. Besides a few projects that should only take a few hours. I want this wedding to come. NOW!

I miss my J Love. SOOO incredibly much. I spent all day with him today and it was NOT enough. I truly look forward to after the hustle & bustle. When we get a whole uninterrupted week of US time.

I'm so lucky to have a man in my life that treats me the way I am treated. A man I could not imagine my life without. A man that I want to spend every living second with. A man I want my kids to call Daddy.

WE'RE GETTING MARRIED IN A WEEK!

I leave you with that. Be excited.

Ten Days

You know it's REALLY close to wedding day when you're obsessively checking the weather the second you get up. And then 5 times throughout the day. Just in case.

You know it's REALLY close to wedding day when you already started packing for the HONEYMOON! Which mostly meant assembling a list for J Love. Since he's home and I'm not.

You know it's REALLY close to wedding day when you drop 5 pounds in a couple days, because you're too busy to remember to eat. You're tossing & turning in the middle of the night, because you're up in the air on a DJ and you STILL don't know what you want for your bouquet.

You're going over numbers and figures and words and contracts and your head is spinning over the orderly chaos of it all.

You're wondering if the groom has put down his vows on paper. You're shocked when he says he's just gonna wing it when you've had your vows written for OVER A YEAR.

You're crying every time someone says wedding or you see a marriage on TV.

You're getting calls from people who will be here in a week and are wondering what they can bring? How can they help? How are you feeling? Nerves? Anxiety? Excitement?

YES! To all the above.

I CAN NOT wait to be surrounded by family & friends from all over the world. Or the Americas, at least. I can't wait for next Wednesday night when at this very time I will be picking up my MOH from the airport. I can't wait for the attention. And love. And support. And to be the wife to the greatest man I have every known!

Late!

I emailed this to myself on Friday from my phone & am just now getting around to posting it....

I am seriously so excited for this wedding I can't sleep. Despite the fact I am deliriously tired. The only thing that is killing me at the moment is being separated from J Love. INCREDIBLY hard right before our wedding.

He was just here for 2 days. He surprised me on Wednesday and (thankfully) called when he was an hour away. I had to rush home to get my hair and face washed since I had my trial run that day.

Hair & makeup trial was awesome. Airbrush, fake lashes, curling irons and bags & bags full of gorgeous MAC!! I died!

I digress.

J & I got SO much done while he was here. Food, check. Rentals, check. Rings, check. Our to do list is tiny now! Unfortunately since he came with little warning I wasn't able to tell him to bring his birth certificate from home. We are still without marriage licence. The ONLY reason he'll have to venture down next week. And of course to give me kisses. Though I wanted him to enjoy his last off days as a bachelor alone.

We are getting married two weeks!!!

Brown Chicken Brown Cow

Three weeks from today we may be at the top of some mountain. Or we may be fighting against some rapids. Or we may be enjoying a couple's massage. Or we may be frolicking at an indoor water park. Or.... well you get the idea. We could be doing anything.

OUR HONEYMOON!!!

Now is the time to get excited. Now that most of our wedding chores are through. Now that the nerves & stress have been replaced by eagerness & anticipation. After all of our hard work J Love & I get to have a whole week to ourselves! Eek! I am beyond excited. J & I always have the BEST vacations together. I'm sure this one will take the cake!

We decided on Tennessee for a plethora of reasons. A few:

1. We did NOT want to spend a day of our honeymoon traveling. (Sorry Ireland)
2. We didn't want to go anywhere where there were dozens of other newlywed couples enjoying their honeymoon. (Sorry Sandals)
3. We don't like the beach enough to spend a week in the sun & sand. (Sorry Caribbeans)
4. We wanted somewhere with lots to do, specifically in nature. (Sorry Vegas)
5. We wanted somewhere cool (as in temperature), but not freezing. (Sorry Alaska)
6. We wanted to pick somewhere that we would be able to visit again for romantic getaways once we have kiddies. (Hello Tennessee!)

We did not plan our honeymoon in detail. At all. We do not know any restaurant names in the area. All we know is that we rented a cabin in the Smoky's. The cabin is part of a resort, that has a spa & restaurant on site. We will be going to the spa. J Love has never had a professional massage before. He is in for a treat! We'll be white water rafting, hiking & canoodling our spouses! I will constantly be calling J mah husband! GAH!

I have this vision, post-ceremony, every time he leaves my side, "Where's MAH HUSBAND?!"

MY HUSBAND! And I will be HIS WIFE!

I Am Not Too Clever Today

We are getting married in less than 3 weeks. I have SO much to do. Our rental company recently called us & let us know that they no longer can accommodate our wedding. I'm scrambling at the moment trying to find somewhere that can.

This past week I have broken down countless times. The stress of having to have everything done in LESS THAN 3 WEEKS is wearing me thin. I wish we would have eloped. But our parents would have killed us. Our mothers more precisely.

So know instead of calling rental companies I am blogging. Instead of typing out my bridesmaid newsletter I am blogging. Instead of planning the rehearsal dinner I am blogging. Instead of DIYing napkin rings I am blogging.

I am well aware that it is our own procrastination that got us into this trouble. But I am also aware that I wanted a casual BBQ for a wedding. I wanted games & kids in the pool. I wanted mingling & funny toasts. Instead I am getting a wedding that is WAY over my head.

Please don't be surprised if we don't make it to our own wedding. We may just be running away and eloping at our honeymoon. Which is quite popular way up there in the mountains.

Surely these are all normal bridal tendencies. I'm just going through the notions, right?!?! Why do I feel like the only person that doesn't care about silverware or arches or chairs? Why does this wedding hate me so much? Why isn't J Love feeling stressed too? Why? Why? WHY?

Okay rant over... back to planning the best day of my life. That was sarcastic, of course.

PS: Sorry for the negativity. I swear my next post will be all rosy.